super busy Friday

Can’t write the super long post I want to today because work is insane (again)! I’m trying to get ready for big presentation in CA next week…

Brief… last night went well… no tears, no screaming, no broken hearts!  yay!!!

I’ll fully update you soon – I’m headed out of town tonight but will post on Sunday!

xoxox0 have a great weekend!!!

quick update…

Things around work today have been crazy and I haven’t been able to do my normal blog surfing *tear*..

 

I will catch up on all my daily reads eventually!!!

 

Tonight is dinner with superiorex, oh by the way – totally random – I thought about shortening his name to S.E.X you know short for Superior EX… but then I realized that the acronym was SEX hahaha… anyway I thought it was hilarious…

 

So SEX (funny huh) and I are having dinner tonight where I plan to lay it out on the table … wait .. now that sounds like I’m going to have sex with SEX at dinner…. OMG – you get it right?!?

 

I’m going to put it all out there with what I’m feeling and what the three options are … remember from here?

We will see how it goes…. I’m sure a good update tomorrow to follow…

 

Happy Thursday everyone!  Today is much better than yesterday and we will see about tomorrow

November 18, 1999 and 2006

It’s 10:14am as I start this post and already I have had an emotional day; I want to put on my PJ’s and crawl back into bed… and stay there for like 3 days (well at least until Friday morning when I can get up pack and get ready for my weekend road trip)

Today marks a very emotional day for me for 3 reasons….

 

#1. I found out yesterday I have to have surgery on my shoulder.  I have a completely torn Labrum (sp?) and partially torn rotator cuff.  This means no swimming and biking for 12 weeks OUCH!!! and no running for 6 weeks… I’m going to gain all my weight back… YIKES!!!  I haven’t scheduled the surgery yet; I’m waiting on the PA to call me back so I can figure out the date.  It will be arthroscopic so they don’t have to slice me open – but still … it’s a 2 hour procedure where they will anchor my cartilage and tendons back into place and repair the rotator cuff.  They won’t know the extent of the repair of the rotator cuff until they get in there and see what all is going on.  Nice….

I’m hoping to get this over with next week – like Wednesday.  I already have Thursday/Friday off work for Thanksgiving and then I can have the weekend to recover and work from home the following week.  I will be in a sling for six weeks also – AWESOME!  But Doc said I can do normal everyday activities as soon as I want; like brush my teeth, write, type (Thank goodness – hello Doc I have a blog), and I can drive once I’m off my pain meds.  So hopefully the recovery won’t be horrible since it’s arthroscopic.

 

#2.  11.18.99 – I have tried to keep my geographic location undisclosed but today you will find out what state I’m in and where I went to college… excited??? I’m sure you are… hehe

11.18.99 marks a very sad day for a lot of Aggies… I live in Texas… went to Texas A&M.  At 2:42am on 11.18.99, 10 years ago, a tradition at A&M turned into a rather large tragedy.  I’m not sure where you read from or if you know about Texas A&M so I’ll explain..

Aggie Bonfire was a long-standing tradition at Texas A&M as part of our rivalry between UT (in Austin).  Our biggest college rival is UT (or t.u. as we call them.. because they are NOT THE University OF Texas… they are texas university … we don’t like them can you tell)

For 90 years, Aggies built and burned Bonfire on campus each fall. The annual event symbolizes all Aggie s “burning desire to beat the hell outta t.u.”,

Bonfire burned the night before the t.u. A&M football game, which traditionally was held the Friday after Thanksgiving.

A&M students, former students and the like all helped to cut, stack and burn Bonfire.  It was a thriving tradition at A&M since November 18, 1907.

On November 18, 1999 some 92 years after the first Bonfire burned, at 2:42am Bonfire collapsed.  Of the 58 students working on stack that night 12 students lost their lives and around 27 were injured.

I was not on campus at this time – as I had forgone my acceptance to A&M my freshman year to stay home (I wasn’t ready to leave); but most of my now best friends were there that night.  They  have recounted to me their stories and experiences of hearing the never-ending sirens blare throughout campus and down the main drag to the hospital.  The eerie silence on campus that day which coincidentally was Aggie Ring Day (another large tradition at A&M – ask any Aggie and they will show you their Aggie Ring).  They recounted the vigil that took place for the fallen and how A&M forever changed that day.

I remember I was sitting at home folding laundry (at 3am – who does that); when I saw a breaking news story that Aggie Bonfire had fallen.  I had dated a guy in high school who was at A&M and in the Corps of Cadets.  I knew the possibility of him being out there was great – but I hadn’t talked to him in a few weeks and didn’t know when his outfit would be there.  I remember thinking “Oh God he could be there”.

I stayed up the rest of the morning as the news reports rolled in.  I tried calling all of my friends that I knew at A&M to try and get an update; but as you can imagine the phone lines were jammed packed and couldn’t get through.  At that time land lines was all we had as most of us didn’t have cell phones.

It was scary for me … but I didn’t understand the true meaning of the tradition until I was myself a student at A&M.  I got the history and tradition and all that stuff because I loved A&M and but the true root of the bond that Aggies have is unreal.  I love Texas A&M and I love being an Aggie and today I will remember the 12 people who lost their lives on stack that day.  I will say a prayer for each of them along with their families.

 

#3.  I mentioned in the About Me section briefly about my best (best) friend that passed away recently from Cancer.  November 18, 2006 in the early morning hours was the day she had her seizure which eventually led to her diagnosis of brain cancer which would eventually take her life.  We will call her BFF – she has been my best friend since 7th grade.

I think about BFF everyday.  Seriously, there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think … “man I wish I could call her and we could go to lunch”, or “I want to go shopping I wish BFF was here to go with me”, something always reminds me of her and I wish she was here.

November 18, 2006 forever changed my life as I knew it.  I would fight the battle of cancer along side my BFF for 2.5 years.  I went to almost every radiation appointment with her and we threw a “Radiation is over” party at the center.  I laid in bed with her when she was sick from chemo and even ran her an oatmeal bath when she broke out in hives from a platelet transfusion.  She was/is my BFF… no one will replace her.  I love her and miss her more each day.

Her and her husband, me and superiorex were together seriously all the time.  Superiorex and BFFHusband both played college baseball and adult ball and BFFHusband played in the minors.  We were the Fab4… we went out to dinner, movies, concerts, etc and just had a genuinely wonderful friendship.  BFF and I would talk about when we were all married and how we would live next door to each other, we could stay home and raise our babies.  They lived 2 miles from superiorex and me and she would always send me listings of houses in their neighborhood that were for sale… we literally wanted to be next door to each other.

I miss her and wish she was here to help me sort out all of these emotions I’m having.  She always had the best advice – not to mention she wouldn’t at this point, hesitated picking up her phone and calling superiorex herself to let him know what a jackass he’s being

I love you BFF and you are always with me.

I hope you have a good day – sorry today is somewhat of a downer post…. I promise I’ll be back to peppy tomorrow!!!!

Tuesday…

Headed to the dr. here in a few to see if I have to have surgery on my shoulder… say a few extra prayers…

 

I haven’t heard from superiorex today….. interesting… he was a little short in text-conversation last night.

 

We are supposed to do lunch again in which I will effectively grab my non-existent nuts and face this situation head on.  That could potentially  hurt worse than any surgery…

 

Have a happy Tuesday – and I’ll be back soon!

The morning after…

I guess I should say – three mornings after… but hey you get it.

This weekend was really tough for me. One, because I wasn’t feeling very hot – my allergies have been kickin’ lately; and, two because of the lingering feelings I’ve had since my lunch on Friday.

I had no idea the emotional turmoil I would go through after seeing him.

I cried anytime anyone asked me how my lunch went… seriously??? What is up with that??

I talked to K10 (just added in the WHO THE F IS SHE TALKING ABOUT SECTION) and CAB (also added) the two people I frequent most for advice regarding superiorex.  They know him the best..well let me be honest they know me best.

Both said (as did new commenter mamalouise – Thanks Mama for reading!) I should call him out on HER.  I know I should do this…. it’s doing it that is the hard part!!!

This is going to end one of three ways:

#1. I let this continue until something happens on its own accord with him and her (not an option for me)

I call him out on our little “situation” and these two options happen:

#1. He tells me he is not ready to end things with HER and he wants to be friends… this is not acceptable to me and at this point I say “OK but we can not be friends.  It is too hard for me” We close this book on us and I move on.

#2.  He tells me he has feelings for me and that he doesn’t know what to do… in which I respond “break up with her swine flu ass and come work on things with me.”… we work on things, we get back together, we live happily ever after in our big house, pool, and 2.5 kids….

I’m hoping for #2 ….

lunch…

Well we went…. and spent 2.5 hours talking and laughing and genuinely having a wonderful time.

 

It was not awkward or weird when I saw him…. it was easy and natural…

 

I pulled up to the restaurant right as he was.  He had parked and had gotten out of his car.  He saw me pull in and waited for me.  He gave me a hug.

 

We went in sat down and did the obligatory “how are you” “how was your day”, etc etc…

 

We never talked about anything about HER while we ate (or anytime for that matter).  Something about him was different this time around.  He had a new hair do (which I love – its precious), dressed super cute (unlike before when he always looked half way put together), and something about him just oozed “man”.

 

When we were together I never doubted his manliness…. but there was always something rather boyish about him.  He always had that little boy grin, these deep baby blue eyes, and just a boyish nature that was so appealing to me.  But today he had all of those things with a man’s demeanor.

 

It was different…

 

We talked about family and our friends (and of course our dogs).  We laughed alot….

 

I’m too pussy to bring up anything that I really want to talk about because I didn’t want to ruin our wonderful re-connection lunch.

 

I asked him to go out tonight for a friends birthday (all of our mutual friends will be there); he really wants to but I know SHE won’t go if she knows I’m there… I wish he would leave her at home.

 

The hardest part was good bye – I could have sat there for the rest of my life and talked to him…..

 

He hugged me good bye and wouldn’t let go…. I got in my car and cried.

 

Then instantly smiled when he texted me…..

Sushi and Conversation

Today is the day we are supposed to have lunch… It’s 10am and I haven’t heard from him… we are supposed to meet around 12 after I finish up with some calls for work.

 

Want to take bets if this lunch happens???….

It’s just lunch…

I think there is a dating service called that somewhere… I swear I’ve seen the commercials.  Totally off topic, I am an advertisers dream…. I remember every jingle, hook, catchy phrase, commercial, etc… seriously… I couldn’t come up with these things to save my life but I remember all of them!!

 

Ok – back to what you check this blog for — gossip right?

 

BritBoy texted yesterday morning that he is going to be back in town (possibly) next week … wowza … I don’t know if I could go for another night like last week (but it was sooo fun)… we will see if he comes and if he does if he calls… ooo to hear that accent on the other end (weak.in.the.knees)

 

I found out today that I have to go for an MRI tomorrow on my shoulder.  I hurt my right shoulder when I was in the 6th grade and dislocated it….it has bothered me ever since but just recently seriously started hurting.  Last week during a swim for my training I heard it “pop” really loud and instantly stopped mid stroke.  Once I regained myself I kept swimming (totally wrong thing to do)… it’s been bothering me worse so I made a Dr. appt today…. he is concerned I’ve partially torn my rotator cuff and another ligament/muscle/or something in there that starts with an L. I have no clue what he said

 

So tomorrow at 12:00pm I will be confined in a little MRI machine after they shoot me up with dye….. and then next Tuesday I will find out if I have to have surgery…ICK

 

Pretty sure I’m going to do Sushi on Friday – after all this arm stuff I’m feeling sorry for myself and, let’s be honest, who doesn’t love a little sympathy?  Plus he will pay and after shelling out $700 for a MRI I could use a free lunch… excuses, excuses!

 

You’ve all told me to play hard and make him keep begging…but if I hold off too long I will have nothing to blog about…so really…I’m doing lunch for the blog!!!

 

Sweet dreams….. and until tomorrow!

EXGF2009

What a weekend….

I’ve realized this weekend why I am not married — I am  boy crazy.

 

I have been boy crazy since I was 12 and it appears nothing has changed.

 

I have never cheated on a boyfriend… EVER….and never will.  I have dated multiple people at one time; but once in a committed relationship I have never cheated… and never will..but boy do I love boys!

 

This weekend started on Thursday – when I blogged about my evening out HERE…. I drank way too much and I think this set the tone for my weekend.

 

Let  me tell you – I don’t go out “drinking” very often… I go out and have a beer here and there but hardly go out seriously drinking.

 

This was not a one beer kind of weekend…. or a one vodka kind of weekend.

 

Thursday I went out with BritBoy – Like I said he was in town for work… we proceeded to drink too much while I was showing him out on the town.  We had a blast!!!  So much fun. …but I was hurting on Friday.

 

Friday kicked off my high school reunion weekend.  This weekend was my 10 year reunion and I had so much fun.  It was great to see all my old friends and catch up with everyone.  Everyone looked pretty much the same – most are married, have kids, or are knocked up…. I did not fit into these categories….

 

Friday was a reception at our H.S. cafeteria then we went to a local bar… Saturday was a dinner, dancing, etc at an event center.  We had a killer time – but who couldn’t with free beer!

 

LunchBoy was in town this weekend too — with his dad.  He wanted to see me on Sunday at a certain sporting event they were at (* I should note that this is the same sporting event that superiorex and his dad were at that I  mentioned HERE) – but I still had friends in town and I was again, hungover from Saturday night’s festivities; plus it was a father/son weekend and I didn’t want to crash it.  I was hoping that he would stay Sunday night so I could see him but he had to drive back as his dad’s flight was this morning.

 

Nothing is going to happen with BritBoy – he is so fun to hang out with and I totally feel like he is going to be a great friend of mine.  He is full of a male perspective and I think will be a great addition to my phone!  He is so sweet and so nice…let’s hope we don’t drink too much next time we see each other…

 

However, two of my guy friends now have a man crush on BritBoy – and have friended him on FB and I’m pretty sure want to go visit him.  My best guy friend (D) calls him James Bond….his European suit, accent, and large expense account roped D in quick.

 

Superiorex and I emailed/texted all weekend.  Lunch is supposed to be later this week – either Thursday or Friday.  I still haven’t decided if I am going to go…. I probably will I’m not going to lie.  I want to see him – and I want sushi!

 

In recap – this was one HELL of a weekend… my liver, kidneys, head and entire body really went through the ringer…and I’m paying for it as I sit on this 2 hour long conference call…

Oh buggard….

That’s English-man speak for Son-of-a-bitch…

I learned that last night when I didn’t have my tongue down a Brit’s throat….oops…one too many vodkas, a hot Brit, and some lack decision making made for a fun evening.

My friend, BritBoy (he’s from the UK)….was in town for work…. oh wait I didn’t tell you WE WORK TOGETHER…oops… maybe I should have mentioned that when I was telling you my tongue was down his throat.

He works for a different division of our company – no direct relation to what I do….but same company none the less…

I probably should reconsider my decision making ability while intoxicated…or maybe reconsider drinking all together.

I never heard from Superiorex yesterday (first day in quite a while)—but at 7:45am this morning I had an email…. and they continued throughout the day…he even asked me to lunch next week.  We’ll see if it happens… and don’t worry I’ll keep you updated